I will be honest when I say that I fully intended on sharing another blog post when I sat down to upload today, but something is compelling me to take a different route. Which is ironic considering the topic. Since I have begun exploring the energy healing world, a common message I’ve been given is “trust yourself, use your voice, don’t let fear stop you”. I have found great frustration in the fact that there seems to be a missing owner’s manual that instructs me how to do this magical thing called “listening to my intuition”. And even more frustration when I ask the Mr(s). Miyagi in my life how exactly I’m supposed to hear my inner voice and she often answers me with “What do you feel in your gut? What is your intuition telling you?” If I knew what my gut was telling me, I wouldn’t be asking!
So try, try, try again. Of course when faced with something I don’t quite understand, I take the most logical step and educate myself. And by educate, I mean obsessively find every book, article and Google link on the subject. I ask a million questions, force myself into meditation, cleanse and open my chakras (whatever that means) and buy every knick knack out there that claims to aid in psychic abilities. The results? The feeling as if my intuition is only slipping further away.
And of course it is! The harder I try to put boundaries and parameters around something so expansive, the cloudier my “vision” gets. Note the word previously used – “logical”. There is nothing logical or methodical about trusting your feelings. My analytical mind is too simple to hear my intuition because intuition is not heard through your overactive mind that seeks to classify every little thing. Intuition is felt in your heart. It’s understood in your soul.
Ok, so I will admit that the hours of forced meditation may have helped in this matter. I think what I (and all of us) need help with is slowing down long enough to sense what was already there. I was so busy with my iPhone and my clients and my life that I completely zoomed by the little voice in my heart guiding me all along. (What am I in such a hurry for anyways??) Ever get that urge to go left when you wanted to go right? Ever pick up the phone to call someone only to discover they’ve just called you? Hello intuition!
Once I settled into simply being present and feeling my heart and soul, as well as the energy around me, I was able to shift my focus. No longer was I looking through my physical eyes, but I was seeing through my senses. I discovered that intuition isn’t a flashing neon light that lays out a road map for me. It’s much more subtle. It may be different for you, but here’s what I experience. My intuition comes like a fact. There are things I just “know”. Sometimes I see a little movie or image in my mind and think “Yup, that fits”. Other times I just open my mouth and words fall out without me really thinking about what I’m saying. If I think back on life and choices I’ve made, I can almost clearly now see how I followed my intuition and really was hearing what message was being sent.
One of my favorite new ways to experience my intuition is with traditional therapy clients. I suppose this has been happening all along, but boy, does awareness open up a whole new level of fun! I will sit with a client as they share their story with me, and I’ll let my energy open to whatever they are sending my way. I’ll take note of any shifts in my mood or sensations in my body. Then, no matter how silly it sounds, I trust what image pops in my brain and I let it out. I may say to a client “You know, I just keep imagining you on one of those hamster wheels going nowhere fast when you talk about your husband, and I think we should try to shift here”. I find about 95% of the response I get is “Yes! That’s exactly it!!”.
Yesterday, I had my most amazing energy healing session yet. All day as I was getting ready for the healing, I kept getting drawn to my pendulum crystals (a crystal of various properties hung from a chain so that it can swing freely, channel your energy and guide your intuition). I started researching (of course) and wrote myself little notes on the properties of each crystal. And then I got the insight to use them during the healing. I had never done this before, so I wasn’t sure how it was going to play out.
My client reported he experienced the most intense healing he has ever had. Mind you, he has gone to some fantastic healers that are WAY more skilled and experienced than I. I asked him to pick a crystal that drew him, and he held it throughout the session. I then chose a few that amplify intuition and kept them in my pocket. Once we began, he immediately reported an intense rush of emotions as well as images that came to his mind in response to his session intention. I also experienced another first during his session as his deceased mother made an appearance! I didn’t “see”her per se, but got the funny feeling she was with us. When I asked him, he said in that moment he felt the most incredible and overwhelming feeling of being loved and supported. As the healing progressed, he described many other loved ones who crossed over that visited as well as visions and feelings that showed just how deeply he was releasing old hurts and blocksBy the time the session was over, he was happily “emotionally mushy” and I was reeling with the amazing feeling that I finally figured out how to use my intuition!
Blocks to our intuition can result from many experiences in our lives (and this may include past lives). The key is to know that intuition isn’t only a gift for witches, wizards and psychics. We all have it to varying degrees, and we can all tap into it as deeply as we want to. My suggestion is to get used to slowing down and finding quiet space to meditate and be with yourself. (*Note, if you just got the undeniable urge to avoid this or scoffed at the thought, then I’m REALLY talking to you!!*) It’s normal to want to avoid the discomfort we feel, which is why we get good at keeping busy. If this seems too difficult, then you may want to seek out the safety and support of traditional therapy to learn about your emotions and skills you can develop to manage them. Or consider other therapeutic healings modalities that feel right for you. But the reality is no one can tell you the path you need to take to connect with your intuition. You will only discover this path once you take the first steps.
Well played, Mrs. Miyagi.